Out of myself

I need to get out of myself, to connect to people, to start living again. My life is getting smaller. There are so many things that I used to do that I just don't bother with. No real reason, just don't feel like it. I think that I am trying to protect myself but if this is what it is like to be safe, I'd rather be in pain because I lived. One reason I know that I don't feel is there is a lot of anger in me that I'm leery of letting out. So I need to find a safe way of dealing with it.