Things are about to change big time for me. I will be moving to West Philly in September. Grew up here in Kensington, left for awhile but came back to raise my daughter. I've been back 30 years and I'm ready for something else. always wanted to live in West Philly, long before it became University City. When I would visit April at 45th & Pine, I dreamed about living there and now I will be around the corner. Do I dare to believe that things are going to work out? Have I learnt anything from letting my life fall apart? Will I get it right this time?

And then there is work. I don't even know how to describe what is going on. There is a chance that I am being set up to be let go.

Need to plan for the worst and hope for the best.

Trying to get started but I just sit here, say I'm overwhelmed but I'm not. Just don't believe things will ever be good or if they start it will go bad again. I do have an out a permanent one, can't use it yet, need to make sure April is alright before I leave her.

Why do I think things will go bad again? Because they have in the past. The thing I keep dancing around is the fact that I'm the one who caused it most of the time. Yes, losing a job was part of it but I was in bad shape before the Oyster House closed.

So it is me and it has to change.